This feels like hell

Huhuhu :( I wasn’t able to eat decently the whole day. Blame it to my very lame braces. Huhuhuhu. I dunno what happened to my gums, it’s swollen. I think a new wisdom tooth is trying to protrude its way out. But actually it has been there for a long time, only that it’s impacted. Hope I can go to my dentist too soon. :( It’s really painful. I can’t eat, oh my.

Other than that, I feel like I want to puke. No joke, I’m feeling bad at all. Even though my researches (for thesis and feasibility studies) don’t start yet the pressure piles up as days go by. I have lots of things to accomplish and it’s not yet the middle of the semester. Wow! Just terrible. :(

Before you leave this space, I’m gonna share to you a video of Kontra-gapi last year which I had seen live and hopefully this year I would be one of the performers of this group. This is the 19th anniversary concert of my Org and this coming August, we would be celebrating our 2nd decade of existence as we bring Pinoy contemporary tribal music amidst the strong influence of Western music in our society today.

KG @ 19 - Hamon sa Kasalukuyan (Palispisan)

Hope you enjoy it!

Semstarter and way to go

This is what you call the gist of being a busy student in distress– no blogging for many weeks. Busy in acads? Hahaha. That’ll make me laugh more. I am actually busy with other stuff. Not yet with acads, that’ll come later. Expect it to be on August or October, which would be the end of the semester.

So, what keeps me up?

My training’s going on with Kontra-gapi. The 20th anniv concert is too soon but the practical exam is sooner! LOL. That just means stay-up-to-late-nights practices everyday. God, my body gets exhausted way before this sem ends. I made a pact that I should dance in the anniversary concert, just right before I graduate from college. Remind me of that!

My other soon-to-be org (UP ALAB) is recruiting new members and is finding ways on how we would be recognized in the College (CHE). This also takes my evening time for meetings that talks about mainly on forums and orientations that we’ll conduct in UP. This is a political org affiliated with STAND UP (Student Alliance for Nationalism and Democracy) and is aiming to create a base student body in College of Home Economics (which gives you an idea where I’m currently enrolled at) to help further disseminate the ideals and opinion of STAND UP as an existing active student alliance in the campus. Furthermore,being a  new registrant for the upcoming election in 2010 and due to my urge to be more socially relevant youth, I joined Kabataan Partylist for a hope that I could do a something better for this country. I go for the call which states, “Wala kang karapatang magreklamo kung hindi ka naman nangingialam”. To good to be true.

You too could be part of this team if only driven by a firm belief that even as young as you are, you can make a history. Be a Kabataan Partylist member.

Enough of those stuff… Sheesh.

Thesis and Feasibility Studies are eating all my brain cells up. That gives me a nostalgic aura of missing the ‘HRIM series’ days and moments that I have gone into 2 semesters ago. I really miss the times I would wake up at 5am and travel to school, plunging over the cold morning air while sitting up in jeepney seats and hurriedly set up my things for another day of themed functions. I miss cooking for 300  covers. That’s a lot! But uberly fun!

My chef uniform’s just stocked inside my cabinet :( Hopefully I can wear it again. Perhaps, it would be during my practicum days. I miss it too. :(

HRIM series (consists of HRIM 104,105 and 109) is nonetheless more enjoyable than thesis and feasib. LOL. The latter sucks!!!!!!!!!!

Recently I learned in HRIM 103 (Nutrition in Hotels, Restaurants and Related Institutions) that when we eat, the information just registers in our body after 2o minutes. Fast eaters are more prone of getting fat because they tend to eat more for the lack of ’satisfaction’ when in fact, you’ll just feel it after some time. But for me, it doesn’t work. Yeah, I am a fast eater but I don’t get fat. Hahahaha! And I eat a lot! :P

Currently reading: The Alchemist of Paulo Coelho

Panaginip

Bakit ika’y nagpakita sa aking panaginip?

Ano bang ibig sabihin nun?

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abrakadabra

WOooooooooo!

Nasaan ang huling post ko?

Wordpress. Anu na? may galit ka ba sa akin?

Ganyanan na!!

Sa bahay

.. Sa bahay na wala akong ginagawa, kumain, maginternet, matulog, magbasa ng libro at magkaraoke gamit ang YouTube. :)

At ako’y laging nakasuot ng pekpek shorts.  Alam niyo ba kung ano yun??

At ako’y nagbabasa ng For One More Day ni Mitch Albom. :)

A Hell of a Blast Experience

You  missed me or you didn’t, I don’t care!! Hahaha! *ang taray ba? LOL

I feel a lil bit refreshed right now. God really is making my life more interesting. I am happy coz finally my dad got a teaching job. After months of being the wife husband (coz my mom is in somewhere else), he will teach again in one of the colleges in Legarda. He used to be a professor and he quit but he masters Physics, Math and Drawing. :) I am so happy for him. I wish him the best of luck and lots of blessings from God for his new job!

Ok,  I am actually writing all these stuff not just for the sake of telling them. I prefer to take down all that happened to me during those times that I have been busy since at the end of the day I actually would like to assess myself whether I’ve done anything good or in the process I hurt anyone else. Blogging for me is not just a tool for ranting and telling but it’s rather a ‘reflection’ medium for me, to make me reminisce everything and as days would pass by, I would just say to myself while reading it, “O! This happened pala! Nakakatawa naman” or “Ay, namimiss ko ‘tong mga moments na ito”. But ironically, I deleted my previous posts, hehehe. All of it! coz I find them very bitter and very childish. I started typing one day,I revived this blog and I said to myself, “Ayoko nang maging bitter. Forget the past. Erase. Erase. Erase.” Minsan talaga tinotopak ako.

Anyhow, with few days left of bumming, I spent time with my friends and him. Yesterday, I introduced him to my cousin, and he was to first one that I actually introduced to any of my relatives. We bonded, the three of us, but I was happier that I had more time with him before the school starts. We watched a french film in Shangri-La Mall which was sponsored by French Embassy. I think this is an annual activity in Shangri-La and it actually was for free! The last time I was invited there was when I still had my Italian class and that time it was the Italian Film Festival. Cool noh?

The festival opens on Friday, June 5, 2009 at 6:30 p.m.

at the Grand Atrium Level 2 of Shangri-La Plaza

For more info, go here.

Moving on, last monday we went to our favorite Uncle Tat’s place located in Kalayaan Avenue and we did karaoke-ing. It’s usually our bonding activity if not Rockband!!! Wooh! Rockband! Then we played pool. Dearie and I were partners and we won. We’re great. :P Hahaha. That was the first time again that he accompanied me to the loading area when I got home. Naku, lagi kasi kaming nag-aaway! :P

Another thing, that morning on the same day, I met ‘manong driver’. Hahaha. Meron kasi akong isang jeep na laging nasasakyan na may biyaheng Fairview. Mga tatlong beses na akong napapasakay sa jeep niya at dahil dun kilala niya na ako. Hahaha! While on a different jeepney, and I was seating in front, a man called me “Oh, musta ka na? Graduate ka na day?”, with manong’s bisayan accent. “Hindi pa po eh. Fourth year na ako!”, I replied. Then he went on though it occured to me like he was murmuring coz I couldn’t fully understand his accent. :P Sorry naman manong!

Nakakatuwa lang talaga yung feeling na may biglang magha-hi sa’yo. Di ba?

Wednesday came. I met new friends na mga tibak. Ayah, is the tibak girl that I knew na mejo conio. Hehehe. But she’s nice and she’s well versed with what she was explaining. By the way, I met her through an ED or Educational Discussion that they usually hold in different colleges. Marami niyan dito sa UP. Well apparently, it was out of boredom that I listened to their discussion. I was not active of any sort to any political activities in school.

But as I had explained to them while having rest after the ED, though I do lots of stuff in school, though I am loaded with research and functions and night-outs with friends, I am still searching something in my life that I feel would fill in the boredom in me. I feel like, what if this is it!? What if this would introduce a new prospect of self-fulfillment that I’ve actually been looking to? Ang akin lang, hindi sapat na nagagawa kong magpayabong sa pansariling interest lamang. Hindi ito ang magiging sukat ng aking kasiyahan. Mas nanaisin kong may magawang bagay para sa aking kapwa. Ayun lang. :D

And since I’ve finished the enrolment and I’ve finally paid the tuition after many days of loitering in school, I am not allowed to go out of the house. This is sooooooooo sad! My cousin and I are supposed to watch the Pussycat Dolls concert, but hell no… I don’t know if I can go out.

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To leave you with something useful for today, I’ll share to you guys what I learned. The Filipino term for nosebleed is ‘balinguyngoy’. That’s what my  friend told me. Nyehe!

Ito na

Ilang araw na akong hindi nakapagblog. Maraming nangyari. Maraming realizations ang dumating sa buhay ko ilang araw pa lang ang nakararaan. Ganun kabilis si God na iparating ang kanyang mga mensahe sa akin. Hindi ko man naikukwento sa inyo ang buong istorya ng love life ko, ngayon, hindi na akong mahihiyang ishare sa inyo ito.

Nung friday, sa kasagsagan ng bagyo, niyaya ako ng isa kong guy ‘friend’ na lumabas. Weird lang din dahil hindi naman talaga kami dati ganun ka-close. Then isang araw na lang niyaya niya akong lumabas. Sa akin, kebs lang kasi friends naman kami. Ayoko namang bigyan ng malisya. I don’t know kung mtatawag mo bang date yun pero kaming dalawa lang ang namasyal nung mga oras an ‘yon. Sabi naman ng girl friend ko, “Ano yun, bet ka?” Sabi ko, “Hindi noh. Friends lang kami.”

Eh di ayun na nga, lumabas kami, namasyal, kumain. He took advantage of the instances. He kissed me. Nainis ako, sabi ko uwi na ako. That moment I remembered ‘My dearie’. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kung si dearie nga super close na kami na may something sa amin never took advantage of me, yung ‘friend’ ko pa! Nalungkot ako, sana si dear na lang kasama ko. I feel safer when I am with him.

Kami ni dear ay not in good terms. Hindi naging kami pero we understand each other. Sort of MU ba yun? Hahaha. We never talked for a long time. We had a little skirmish before. We never talked until a month after our fight. Then ok na kami. Then after 2 months, nag-away ulit kami. Then tuluyan ko na siyang tinaboy. The problem really was me though he has his own issues.

My dearie and I had the chance to talk about us. For a very long time of waiting, kahapon lang naging klaro sa amin ang lahat. Hindi kasi ako vocal na tao. Madalas kinikimkim ko na lang sa sarili ko ang mga nararamdaman ko. Kaya hindi siguro nagworkout kung anumang meron sa amin ng ‘dear’ ko. But just yesterday, I had the courage to tell him what he was to me. He actually opened up that topic. Never had I had any hesitation to tell him. Sabi ko naman kasi sa sarili ko, matagal na rin yung isyung yun. Magandang linawin na. I knew then what I was to him. Pero hindi naman ako nanghihinayang sa ginawa kong ‘pangtataboy’ sa kanya. I think it led me to where I am right now. It gave me chances to realize kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. And so he asked, what do you want after all these? I said, I dunno. Hindi ko naman siguro kailangang madaliin ang sarili ko di ba? Siguro it’s better, right now, to just enjoy the company of each other. Happy na akong andyan siya eh. Kung ano pa ang mga kasunod na bagay, bahala na si God.

I shared this to impart the lessons I learned.

1. Say what your heart wants to say, makakarelieve yun ng stress at sakit sa puso. Hahahahahah :D

2. Sa buhay, ok lang na makaencounter ng mga di kanais-nais na tao o bagay. Dun tayo natututo gaya na lang nung ‘friend’ ko. Friend pala ah! *sarap ingudngod ang mukha niya sa semento”.

3. Wait for the right moment. Wag tayong magmamadali sa buhay. Mas masarap lasapin ang bawat piraso ng kendi na kinakain mo kesa lunukin na lang bigla.

Grrr..

Oh god. Something shitty happened between him and me. I am a fool and he is a slut! Dumb ass!

Pero bago pa man nangyari ang lahat, natagpuan ko na lang ang sariling kong nakangisi. Alam niyo kung bakit? Para kasi akong nanonood ng pelikula sa foodcourt habang kumakain. May nag-aaway na magsyota sa harapan ko. At feeling ko college students din sila. Ang babae, maitim at hindi maganda. Aba! Ang lakas kong manlait noh?! Ang lalaki naman, hindi kagwapuhan pero maporma. Hahaha!

Hindi ko man naririnig ang pinag-uusapan nila, ramdam ko namang nag-aaway sila ng bongga dahil hindi sila nagpapansinan, nakakunot ang mga noo nila at nakanguso ang mga bibig nila. Oh db? (Ang sama ko noh?) At maya-maya pa ay nagsosolian sila ng mga litrato?? Eh ano nang ibig sabihin nun? Hahaha.. Ang sa akin lang, gagawin na lang nila yun, sa foodcourt pa. Maraming matang nakatingin. Hahahaha!!

Ang mean ko ba? Hindi ko pa kasi nararanasan yun eh. At kung sakali man, hindi sa mataong lugar ako makikipag-away at makikipagbreak sa boyfriend ko. Pano na lang kung may isang taong ‘usesera’ din tulad ko?? hahaha. Na ginagawan ka na pala ng storya nang di mo alam..

hahaha.

Pasensya na. Badtrip lang ako. Kasi naman.

June 3 is the start

First day of enrollment is less hassle. Perhaps because I got almost all of the subjects I need for this sem. For the first time the online registration is ‘good’ to me.

Enrolment in UP, as you know guys, is BLOODY. The line is STILL long despite the fact that it is automated. Students line up as early as 7 in the morning and might finish the registration at 5 pm. No joke! Hahaha :) Luckily, I have my status changed to “graduating” and I am given priority in slots. Bwahahaha! In fairness though, it is less hassle than what it has been before.

Next week would totally be the official week of start of classes. I am looking forward to one DREADFUL semester. :P

MIA


Back to school!!!!!!!

Good bye bummers! ;p