Clumsy as she is: a Chef and Careerwoman Wanna-be

This was quite a good day for me. I was happy the whole day. Our professor commended our report and our classmates said that we looked as if we knew well what we were reporting in front. Geeee… Are we quite good actresses? hhahaha… Truth is,. we just prepared for our report hours before the presentation. Hahaha!

I had my stomach painfully tortured with spasms due to nonstop laughing just when we had (KONTRA-Gapi batchmates) our dinner in school. That was an experience I could not forget. For the first time I had a bonding moment with them after so many instances that I declined their invitation to hang out due to my busy schedule. … Hopefully I ‘ll have more fun fun moments like this. Aw, I miss this feeling. I had this when I was still in high school.

Let’s all give a round of applause to Ms. Ciara Mae Daquis for writing a senseful and inspiring article in Inquirer… It is her very first article  published in a newspaper. I am so proud of my friend. Here’s a link to her article: http://opinion.inquirer.net/inquireropinion/columns/view/20081111-171449/Booze-friendship-and-sad-endings

comments and reactions are highly appreciated.. :).

btw, her blog is just a click away. mind if you visit her? Ciara

There is no other thing that sucks more than having a boyfriend who’s so insensitive. It would be better if you go away. Lucky you that I can still tolerate such attitude of yours. Wait til I couldn’t make it up to you once again. Wait til my patience be consumed at last. Ugh, you won’t hear any word from me anymore.  Wait til everything would be gone for you and there would be nothing you could look back to.

Nakalulungkot isipin na maraming relasyon ang aking napabayaan dahil sa napakahigpit kong skedule ngayong semestreng ito. Kahit na magiging mas mahirap ang susunod na semestre, sana naman hindi na maulit ang nangyaring ito. Masakit kasing isipin na nawawalan ka ng oras sa mga bagay-bagay at lalong lalo na sa mga taong mahal mo. Sana makabawi ako. Sana.

You don’t know how meatshop helps!! wahahaha! Last night was my night of bumming up myself after turning down a shitful-plainly-fucking acads week. At least the burden was lessened since we’ve done almost half of the final requirements for this sem. Oh God! There’s more left actually. it’s not yet over, not yet.

I am happy though. wahahahaha… How lucky we were (some HRIM friends) that we were able to attend a tea function for just hundred bucks.. what-the… For an original price of P200 per ticket, it was so sulit, eh? What we have were plentiful of delicious sandwiches and veryyyyy sweet chocolate fudge and an apple tart served with bottomless hot oolong tea. I had fun killing time with Gan and friends. Super laugh trip talaga. Gan was soooo bangag that time na sobrang ewan lang…Sumakit na lang tiyan ko sa katatawa ng bongga. But we were not able to get any pictures on that function.. and oh, the teacups were a huge issue that one lousy afternoon in the function area. Alvin (one of my friends) commented that we couldn’t not hold on the cups properly coz in the first place they were not teacups, they were coffe cups. I think one of the servers brought it up to Mam Tumanan (their teacher). After a while Mam Tumanan confronted us outside the function area and this was what she said, “guys, limme tell you something, about the teacups..umm… that was what all we have so most probably you would also be using it in your catering next sem”…. Ma’am… masyado mo namang dinibdib… Iba kasi ung way ng pagkakasabi niya, Sounds like she’s bitter. Oh Ma’am if I could just not get you in the CRS next sem for catering. If I could have just other choice, I don’t want you to be my my teacher. Ugh,..

Good thing Gan invited me to go there. If it weren’t for him I too wouldn’t have been to meatshop. Ah, that meatshop was legendary. That was where I got drank and “sabog” for the first time and it happened just months ago. I was with my orgmates then when that happened. Good thing I was able to go home partly “good” (half numb-half conscious). wahehehehe… For the benefit of those who doesn’t know what the fuck MeatShop is… well, a drinking place situated in Katipunan, xavierville ave. Hehehe.,, Now you know! Should you have drinking / bangag sessions with your friends, pwede na rin doon. But I should first congratulate myself for not being wasted after taking plentiful of alcohol shots. The first time I flooded myself with liqour, I got sleepy and dizzy easily but last night was a sort of breaking my record. I endured the effect of alcohol and yeah, I went home “truly good”. Walang amats. wakokokokkk.. I was glad to have bonding moments with my other classmates/batchmates from other sections. At least I’m trying to make my circleeven bigger LOL. That was a blast. Val was there.. The Valvin tandem was the talk of the crowd. Marianne-Ryan issue was hot too. And Kat… she’s so damn hot that night, that was what she said to everybody, wahehehehe… But hey, she’s sooo nice. I like her. And yeah, another quiet talk with Erika happened. The usual rants and all spurted like what I am supposed to tell. Nothing new actually.

Gan even taught me how to smoke. Duh, Gan… what’s sooo new? wahahahha.. Joke. That was a joke. Not being so plastic, I do want to know how to smoke, at least for social purposes. Not that I want to be a chain smoker or so… I was just curious how it is done. *grin* Gan, a little practice makes perfect, eh? wahahahah

I just feel happy whenever I get to know people other than those in my usual circle. That is when I realize that life gives you every chances to enjoy every moments you have. It’s just that you have to first have the initiative to take that leap and then actually start exploring the world. Everything’s welcoming you with arms wide open, but it’s up to you to grab it or leave it afterso. Of course, responsibility should not be set aside and it goes with every actions we take. They’re like twins- enjoyment and responsibility, a package in one, get it?

One thing, I can go out very late but should go home not later than 12 midnight. Yeah, moreso like a cinderella story. I have a curfew for myself. 12:00 should be the latest. hehehe

Can’t wait to see the pics we shot last night.

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MeatShop One time big time

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Ahh, I don’t want to be bitter though I see a lot of things that tempt me to be such. Bitch life! A crap.

Just so out of the topic: I want to say that whoever might want to give me an SLR camera for christmas, oh well, thank you. I want it so badly,. But errrr.. Would someone really give me such expensive gift? 

“you wish!” (pouts and points myself). Whatever!

I am tired and sleepy and wasted. Enough said. I want sufficient time of sleep and rest. Hayst. Hopefully this sem would end sooooo soooooonnnn!!

Whew. That was very tiring though. I have been to Danielle aka Dang’s house for a night just to finish our 115 project. Fuck. I was tired the whole night and I wasn’t functioning properly. Sorry Dang; but I love your food. You have been very generous to me amd you fed me for two days. Huwaw! Nabusog ako ah.

And today is the day. Whew! Recital keeps everyone nervous and busy. Yey! Few hours from now I will be performing what I learned in months of training in Kontra-Gapi. I am so excited! Hopefully everything will run smoothly later and hopefully I won’t forget any piece so that I won’t look blank in front. Yay. The steps… The dance… Sometimes I forget what comes after one step. Noooo! That can’t be. God.

Just wanna share with you guys what happened last Saturday. That day was yet an ordinary day for me until I decided to text my ex boyfriend to see me in Gateway Cubao. I found no malice in asking him to see me since I guess this would be the last time that he would go back here in Manila. What we did was not really a sort of  bf-gf thingy. He was not so sweet to me, it was as if we were going along together only as friends. Imagine us walking side by side not either holding hands or not even dared to brush our shoulders. Despite that, I understand why he acted such. I know it was quite awkward to be with your ex days after you broke up with him or her and see him as if nothing happened, as if no break-up happened. Yeah, the was how I think I could describe the scenario between us that Saturday night.

I admit I really was happy when I saw him that night. I don’t know how I was supposed to react. He laughed at me coz he saw me just looking at him and smiling as if he read my mind that yeah, I was dazzled by everything that was happening. He said, “parang nung isang araw lang u’r saying goodbye tapos ngayon, kasama mo ako”… Wahahaha! Oo nga naman. He has a point. Never had I thought that he would appear in front of me again, just like how apparations shock you at most.

So, we talked about everything, life, his stories, his plans, everything; but not once that we tackled about our relationship. I know it’s quite clear to him that we are no longer a part of each other. He was so aware of it. We just ate together, I had coffee at Gloria Jean’s and after that we went home. A plain shit of killing time as   how I describe it. I thought something would happen that night, perhaps, he would ask me to go back to him again or in my most fanciful dream, he would finally kiss me that night. But hey, none of those came into picture for real.

Should you be sad for me, I guess not, coz I myself was happy even just for the fact that I was able to see him and be with him [even for the last time]. He too frankly said that he might not be able to go back here in Manila again for some reasons which I wanna think is acceptable. Well, he’s got life of his own. I could not force him to stay here when in the first place he has no one to live here with. I was just happy with the idea that he somehow thought to drop by here and get a glimpse of me and finally get a chance to talk to me. I was contented with that. Such a shallow person I am, eh? :))

What I undergo right now is the process of accepting that perhaps we are not meant to be with each other; that it would be better just to be where we are- special friends. I think that is the safest place where we can settle ourselves for it minimizes hurt and expectations for us both. Just a sort of realization from me. I don’t know if you find this senseful.

There, just wanna share to you guys one lame story I had one Saturday evening.