Clumsy as she is: a Chef and Careerwoman Wanna-be

This was quite a good day for me. I was happy the whole day. Our professor commended our report and our classmates said that we looked as if we knew well what we were reporting in front. Geeee… Are we quite good actresses? hhahaha… Truth is,. we just prepared for our report hours before the presentation. Hahaha!

I had my stomach painfully tortured with spasms due to nonstop laughing just when we had (KONTRA-Gapi batchmates) our dinner in school. That was an experience I could not forget. For the first time I had a bonding moment with them after so many instances that I declined their invitation to hang out due to my busy schedule. … Hopefully I ‘ll have more fun fun moments like this. Aw, I miss this feeling. I had this when I was still in high school.

I want to but have no time to blog. So very short notice: I am now a member (reserve) of Kontra-Gapi. Good to me! Weehh. I have to congratulate myself. Yay!

[and this was edited last Oct 5, 2008]

photos courtesy of my friends. Thank you!

striking a pose isn't bad. why not do it?

my co-apps. im so proud of you guys!

another candid shot

fred and jopay having their speech

and comes Godofredo, our batch head

our logo for the batch! Go Luwasa Duwarawa

thanks for that lovely reminders guys!~ Smile and Sit up Straight. Go KG!

Blurred Ate Laya (our trainer)

Balitaw Boys: Odie and Ariel

see me? see me? nakatalikod ako sa cam...

there!! Half-exposed face of mine. whew!

Balitaw girls... Malandi. wahaha :P

and lastly, our name.. Luwasa Duwarawa..

End of update. Hope you enjoyed looking at the pics. nyahaha

And today is the day. Whew! Recital keeps everyone nervous and busy. Yey! Few hours from now I will be performing what I learned in months of training in Kontra-Gapi. I am so excited! Hopefully everything will run smoothly later and hopefully I won’t forget any piece so that I won’t look blank in front. Yay. The steps… The dance… Sometimes I forget what comes after one step. Noooo! That can’t be. God.

whew! after so long time of locking up myself in friendster and multiply blogs, i’m back. FINALLY. so cool that my mom gave me this laptop. that’s why i have more control over my pc activities. unlike before that i have to share the computer with my brother,. ah. that sucks dude! i thank mom so much for providing me this cool stuff as her bday gift for me. speaking of birthday, i just celebrated my 19th bday last september 4. yay! how i realize that another year was added to my aging genes. aw, i’m 19 which does mean that this would be my last year of being a teenie. no no… don’t want to think too much about it yet. nyehehehehe. but seriously, damn, i feel old.

my bday was such a blast. no parties were held,. no celebration grande or whatsoever. but hey, i did love my bday. why? it was very special for me since that day was our function in school. imagine, i fed 150 persons that time and the foods that i prepared were pretty much appreciated by almost all of our guests. nyey! it was so damn good to feel that that day was damn different from my previous bdays. my titas were there on our function. they went there to see me. eric was there to taste what i cooked. he was there to see me too, after 3 years. and after all, almost all of my friends were there to greet me. i was happy despite that fact that supposedly i share that special day with my boyfriend. but as expected, my boyfriend wasn’t there. he’s somewhere else. never did he plan to go here in manila to celebrate his bday with me nor did he plan to see me again. damn, para saan pa na naging pareho ang birthday namin?! sheessh,.,

FYI, my bf and I broke up after that day. nyehehehehehe… but it’s not related to his not being with me the day before. it’s about something else which bothered me days prior to that special day. i’d rather not talk about it here yet coz i don’t want to ruin the flow of my story.

that was also the time that i received my laptop together with a pair of  white rubber shoes, dresses (i never thought my mom would give me dresses. mom, when did you see me wearing such? i’m not a girl mom, i’m not! ggrrr,,) and some chips and cookies and chocolates! hehehehehe,., i love the dark M&M’s she gave us.  my tita added another pair of rubber shoes. skechers ragged shoes with open soles. whew! i was so happy to receive many gifts on that day. i was overwhelmed.

by the way, i was the executive chef of our function last september 4.

look how messy i was that day. i was not just messy but i smelled damn like inasal na manok. true enough that we served chicken inasal as our main dish, it went well with the kangkong with mango salsa we served as our side dish. that was a perfect match dude! many liked the combination of the salsa and inasal. so sad i won’t be able to show some pictures of our food. only if i have cam, i sure would be able to capture pics of them. (now i know what i want to have this christmas, nyehehehe…). In the picture was my production staff with me (third from left) and my sous chef (second from left, beside me). Look at my apron. Mukha raw akong matador. wahahahaha.. Hanep sa pagkadugyot ang damit ko. winner!

a pose with my groupmates (from left): camille parker, kat gesmundo, berna velayo, me, karen mercado, tonet sumampong and maio del pilar.

haggard-lookin’, isn’t it?

ma’am said she liked our function, that we went on the extra mile to go out of the traditional theme of a filipino function. yey! of course we’re happy to hear it. Being the exe cutive chef of course was a great pressure, same as with my other groupmates who did their job as managers (function manager, sales and marketing manager, housekeeping manager and dining room manager).  all i can say is that at least all that we had worked for paid off. with dedication and enthusiasm, we made it! i was just so proud of my group.

I’m happy, all in all. i’m happy though my love life never bloomed. so the story just ended there. just one day i decided not to text him and he too didn’t text me. so coincidental it might seem.perhaps, we were just waiting for each other who’s gonna give up. ppfftt! we two gave up. understood na yun! yehehehehe. i’m not thinking of him that much though i’m sad that my affair with the boy just ended. first official boyfriend ko pa man din siya.

masaya naman ako, that’s what matters more. in three weeks, i’m going to perform in kontra-gapi’s this semester’s recital. yep, though oftentimes I rant about my heavy workload and hectic schedule, i still managed to join a performing org and i’m having no regrets at all coz i’m happy about it. it makes me complete.

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Napansin niyo bang nawala bigla ang mga luma kong entries? Isa lang ibig sabihin niyan. Binura ko na silang lahat. Naiinis lang kasi ako sa sarili ko habang binabasa ko ang mga iyon. Nalaman kong mga walang kwentang bagay pala ang mga pinagsusulat ko. Ang babaw naman kasi ng pag-iisip ko. Siguro, nagbago na’ng pananaw ko sa buhay. Matagal na rin kasi buhat nang isulat ko ang huling entry ko. Ang childish ng dating sa akin. Sa tagal ng panahon, maraming nagbago (siguro)- ang pagkatao ko, ang mga pananaw ko sa buhay, at maging priorities ko.

Buhat nang tumuntong ako sa edad na 18, maraming pagsubok ang gumulantang sa mundo ko. Sa totoo lang. Nagsabay-sabay lahat ng problema ko. Tungkol sa pamilya, pag-aaral at love life. At sa unang pagkakataon, kinailangan kong maging isang independent na tao. Oo, nabasa mo nga nang tama- independent!

Unang-una sa lahat, natuto akong mapalawak pa ang aking social circle. Ito ang panahon kung kailan ako sumali sa pinakamamahal kong Org- ang UP SHARP. Natuto akong i-appreciate ang social life ko buhat nang pumasok ako sa UP. Hindi naman kasi ako aktibo sa mga orgs noong high school. Ang totoo, ni walang organization sa MaSci. Kung meron man, invitational lang. Sa unang pagkakataon din nakasali ako sa patimpalak ng pagkanta! At siyempre pa, hindi iyon solo (dahil mamamatay ako kung gayon). Sumali ako sa choir ng aming college at kami’y naging bahagi ng inter-college carol fest. Napagtanto kong may talento rin pala ako sa pagkanta. Akalain mo yun?!?

Sa panahong ito rin natututo akong balansehin ang buhay acads at buhay pamilya ko. Kinailangan kong tulungan ang aking pamilyang i-manage ang aming negosyo. Isang fancy restaurant ang naisip ng aking mga magulang at tumagal na rin ito ng 4 na taon. At bilang BS HRIM student, isang paraan na rin ito upang hasain ang aking galing sa pagmamanage ng negosyo. Nakakapagod ngunit kailangan kong kumayod. Kahit pagod na galing sa eskwela, kailangan pa rin magbantay. Naniniwala kasi kaming hindi lalago ang negosyo kung ipagkakatiwala mo lang sa ibang tao. Isa yan sa mga nakatatak na sa isip ko. At napatunayan ko namang ito’y totoo.

At dahil kasalukuyang naghihirap na ang buhay dito sa ‘Pinas. Napilitang umalis si Mama patungong London upang doon maghanap ng trabaho. Ito ang isang bagay na nagpapahirap sa amin sa ngayon at sinusubukan kong maging matatag. Naiintindihan ko ang hirap na pinagdadaanan ng mga pamilyang hindi buo dahil sa ibang bansa nagtatrabo ang kanilang kaanak. Hindi naman ito ang unang beses na malayo sa aking mga magulang. Ang totoo, nagtrabaho si Mama sa Hongkong noon bilang isang DH at sa Papa sa isang construction sa Taiwan. Pareho silang umalis at ako’y naiwan sa pangangalaga ng aking Lola noong ako’y 4 na taong gulang pa lamang. Buti na lang at napagdesisyunan nilang magsama ulit.

Naging mahirap para sa aming lahat ang panibagong pagsubok na ito lalo na sa aking mga kapatid. Naiintindihan ko ang aming sitwasyon, pero sila?? Sila’y mga bata pa lamang at bilang sila’y lumalaki, mahalagang nasa tabi nila si Mama. Masakit, malungkot Pero kailangang magtiis.

Bilang isag dalagang tao… dumarami na rin ang mga lalaking nanliligaw sa akin. Nakakatawa na nakakakilig na nakakabaliw na nakakainis. Isa ito sa mga pinakabago sa buhay ko. Ni minsan hindi naman kasi ako nagkaroon ng boyfriend. Noong hayskul, puro pag-aaral lang ang inatupag ko, bilang isang estudyante ng science high school. Wala sa bukabularyo ko ang kumerengkeng Pero ngayong college na ako.. aba aba… nagugulat lang ako sa mga nangyayari. Kabilaan ang mga nanghihingi ng number ko. At biglang may nagtatanong, “Gusto mo ba ako?”… Nakakaloka! Wait lang ha…. Ngunit kahit na ganoon, priority ko pa rin ang pag-aaral ko at pamilya ko. Sa totoo lang, wala akong balak magkaroon ng boyfriend. Tapos.

Mahirap kasi sa aking pagsabayin ang lahat ng iyon…. lalo na’t kailangan ako ng aking Papa dahil wala naman siyang ibang katuwang sa pagpapalaki ng aking mga kapatid. Kumbaga, natatakot akong baka ma-out of focus ako. Masarap ma-in love. Pero hindi sa ngayon.

Natatakot ako sa mga pwedeng mangyari. Kinakabahan para sa mga darating pa. Pero isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito, kailangan kong maging mas matatag para sa sarili ko at maging sa ibang tao.

hulaan niyo kung sino ako diyan..