How I wish there is someone I can call my own. I miss you.

I have been thinking of my thoughts and feelings lately and I guess I could summarize it by this statement: I am waiting for myself to fall in love again. ^_^

Paano ko ba sasabihin na gusto kita? Nalulungkot ako na ika’y hindi ko makasama. Sa 20 o higit pang mga araw ako’y maghihintay upang ika’y masilayan. Di na iniisip pa ang mahabang oras na daraan. Mahirap man intindihan ang nararamdaman, iisa lang ang aking nalalaman– ako’y hahangang muli hindi sa kung sinuman kundi sa’yo magpakailanman.

While STILL waiting for the SONA rally pictures to be uploaded, I’ll tell you guys first my story that happened last Sunday. That was supposed to be a rest day for me but I was obliged to go to school and attend our team buidling activity for my org (UP KONTRA-GAPI).

This activity was sponsored by one of our alumni who is now handling a group that offers Corporate Team Building Seminars for Companies like Globe, and others.

To start with, we had to divide ourselves in two groups.

Each team then had a mission and vision brainstorming for our organization. We were asked of what Kontra-gapi would be after 20 years and what its mission/s are.

By the way, we will be celebrating our 20th anniversary this coming August!!!!!! Yey! YOU ARE INVITED.

To begin the first task of this activity, we had the ‘kadang-kadang’ relay at the Sunken Garden.

But before we could start, we had to perform our cheerfor the group!

The first task started!!!!!! We had to reach the finish line altogether. Go kadang-kadang. We finished first. Beh

The second task was quite ‘close’. It required strategy and ‘enough proximity’. We have to cross the line as if we were in a wall. If one’s foot steps out of the line, that means he will fall off. The team would have to start again. Gee!!!

I said close is enough, BUT , ‘TOO CLOSE’ — How is that??

Yikee!

The third task was the frustrating one! You should try the HELIUM HOOP. Duh, I so hate this! Everyone shold bring down the hoop at the same time with your index fingers, just the index fingers, touching the hoop. Sounds easy?? Ha-ha-ha-ha.

NO. It’s not as easy as it sounds like.

Unconsciously, people were bringing the hoop up for the fear of actually loosing a touch with the hoola hoop. Just do it yourself so you will know what I meant with it.  [HERE]

It took us 30 minutes or more to finally finish this one.

While waiting for our lunch to arrive, our alumni offered to enliven us with their rendition of some KONTA-GAPI pieces.

We could not be happier than having an ample time to eat our lunch with our friends and our alumni.

The last challenge came and wooh, this shocked me. I agree to the fact that I can play a number of Gamelan Instruments but.. BUT…. not with a blindfold.

:-S

How I wish I was able to play the music pieces with my favorite instrument (the sarunay) but hell, how would this be a challenge if I would be granted with such request? I was given the instrument that I am not really used to. Ok, good luck na lang sa akin.

Anyhow, it still turned out well.

To wrap things up, I enjoyed this day and I learned a lot. Teamwork plays a vital role for the success of every team.

I love Kontra-Gapi!

Hep! Hep! Di pa ako tapos. Panoorin mo muna ito. APSTA (Awitin ng Pilipinas sa Timog Silangang Asya) music ito. Pero in a HYPER SPEED MODE. Pag si Sir Edru* talaga ang tumutugtog ng DRUMS, mawiwindang ka na! Hahaha!

*To know more about Sir Edru Abraham, click this link.

Nothing’s hotter than Lady Gaga’s spellbinding Paparazzi song. WOOaaah! This has bait me to listen to it over and over again. Grrr…. I thought I won’t like her but this one persuaded me that I SHOULD like Lady Gaga!

Promise i’ll be kind,
But i won’t stop until that boy is mine
Baby you’ll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Surprisingly, I sing it to no one! Hahaha! How I wish there is someone. LOL

Ilang araw na akong hindi nakapagblog. Maraming nangyari. Maraming realizations ang dumating sa buhay ko ilang araw pa lang ang nakararaan. Ganun kabilis si God na iparating ang kanyang mga mensahe sa akin. Hindi ko man naikukwento sa inyo ang buong istorya ng love life ko, ngayon, hindi na akong mahihiyang ishare sa inyo ito.

Nung friday, sa kasagsagan ng bagyo, niyaya ako ng isa kong guy ‘friend’ na lumabas. Weird lang din dahil hindi naman talaga kami dati ganun ka-close. Then isang araw na lang niyaya niya akong lumabas. Sa akin, kebs lang kasi friends naman kami. Ayoko namang bigyan ng malisya. I don’t know kung mtatawag mo bang date yun pero kaming dalawa lang ang namasyal nung mga oras an ‘yon. Sabi naman ng girl friend ko, “Ano yun, bet ka?” Sabi ko, “Hindi noh. Friends lang kami.”

Eh di ayun na nga, lumabas kami, namasyal, kumain. He took advantage of the instances. He kissed me. Nainis ako, sabi ko uwi na ako. That moment I remembered ‘My dearie’. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kung si dearie nga super close na kami na may something sa amin never took advantage of me, yung ‘friend’ ko pa! Nalungkot ako, sana si dear na lang kasama ko. I feel safer when I am with him.

Kami ni dear ay not in good terms. Hindi naging kami pero we understand each other. Sort of MU ba yun? Hahaha. We never talked for a long time. We had a little skirmish before. We never talked until a month after our fight. Then ok na kami. Then after 2 months, nag-away ulit kami. Then tuluyan ko na siyang tinaboy. The problem really was me though he has his own issues.

My dearie and I had the chance to talk about us. For a very long time of waiting, kahapon lang naging klaro sa amin ang lahat. Hindi kasi ako vocal na tao. Madalas kinikimkim ko na lang sa sarili ko ang mga nararamdaman ko. Kaya hindi siguro nagworkout kung anumang meron sa amin ng ‘dear’ ko. But just yesterday, I had the courage to tell him what he was to me. He actually opened up that topic. Never had I had any hesitation to tell him. Sabi ko naman kasi sa sarili ko, matagal na rin yung isyung yun. Magandang linawin na. I knew then what I was to him. Pero hindi naman ako nanghihinayang sa ginawa kong ‘pangtataboy’ sa kanya. I think it led me to where I am right now. It gave me chances to realize kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. And so he asked, what do you want after all these? I said, I dunno. Hindi ko naman siguro kailangang madaliin ang sarili ko di ba? Siguro it’s better, right now, to just enjoy the company of each other. Happy na akong andyan siya eh. Kung ano pa ang mga kasunod na bagay, bahala na si God.

I shared this to impart the lessons I learned.

1. Say what your heart wants to say, makakarelieve yun ng stress at sakit sa puso. Hahahahahah

2. Sa buhay, ok lang na makaencounter ng mga di kanais-nais na tao o bagay. Dun tayo natututo gaya na lang nung ‘friend’ ko. Friend pala ah! *sarap ingudngod ang mukha niya sa semento”.

3. Wait for the right moment. Wag tayong magmamadali sa buhay. Mas masarap lasapin ang bawat piraso ng kendi na kinakain mo kesa lunukin na lang bigla.

Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is la vie en rose

…. says my head. Weehh. I can’t get over with it just yet.  That movie is awesome.  “Les jeux des enfants” or Love me If You Dare in english. Not really the correct translation though.

I enjoyed watching it. Notre professeur en française laisse-nous regarder le film. I am trying to construct simple sentences now in french.  Yay.  XD NO doubt, it became my favorite movie just so sudden. It’s very playful. It’s ‘heavy’ in a sense but they made it ‘light’ in a way that many would appreciate it. It makes you think, at the same time,  it tries to play with your emotions. So great! That’s all I can say.

To trigger more my interest with the movie, I downloaded mp3’s and lyrics of the OST (la vie en rose) and I looked for its trailer which I really want to share with you guys.

I suggest that you should watch it, specially for those who want to fall in love. Yeah. It’s a romantic movie but with many twists on it. If you’re looking for thrills in you life, it surely will inspire you. Many might agree on this (those who watched it already). For that, I give it 5  étoiles (stars). *clap*

And.. for another thing, I found a musicbox version of the la vie en rose.

hayst. Bat kita naaalala?

Ang bait ko kasi eh. Masyadong malambot ang puso ko pagdating sau. Alam ko namang gago ka. Gago ka talaga. Pero bumalik pa rin ako sa’yo. Ang tanga ko sobra. Ngayon, sino na naman ang nilalapitan mo? Siya? Sino pa? Baka hindi lang siya. Ayokong matulad ka sa kanila. You deserve a good life. And gusto ko sanang iparealize sa’yo na may karapatan ka rin maging masaya. Hindi pa naman natatapos ang lahat simula nang iwan ka niya. Pero hindi sa paglapit sa kung sinu-sino makikita ang kaligayahang hinahanap mo. Alam ko naman kasing naglalaro ka lang. Pero sana ma-realize mo naman yon. Sana…

Tonight – Fm Static Music Code

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn’t wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight