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I wanna change the way I look. But I remain the same old me. ) Hoorah for summer! I’m gonna miss this, ))

Grabe, ito na ang magiging matinong post ko for today!!! Hmm… ang sakit sakit nga naman talaga ng pakiramdam pag iniwan ka ng taong mahal mo noh? Grabe, nung una akala ko siya na. Akala ko magkakarelasyon na ako. Dati-rati puro fling lang. Nung dumating siya, akala ko siya na! Shet, hello, NO!!! Iniwan niya rin ako sa ere. Sabi ko nga eh, nakakatawa at nakakainis. Akala ko ako lang ang ayaw PA ng commitment pero siya rin pala. Pero ang pinagkaiba namin, ako hindi ko pa siya kayang i-let go dahil ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi ko kailangang magmadali. mas nanaisin ko pang andito muna siya at kilalanin ko pa siyang maigi. Pero ayun, nauna pala siyang maggive-up! Mas pinili niyang wala na lang ako. Parang gago lang ako kasi naiinis ako sa nangyayari. Bakit? Kasi nasasaktan ako. Hindi ko akalain ganito ‘to kasakit!! Pucha, ito pa, malaman-laman ko ang, na may iba na pala!! Hayup! Ginawa akong gago!

Hay, wala na akong masabi. Masyadong masakit. Pero kaya ko siyang kalimutan, hindi ko lang alam kung gaano katagal.

At dahil depressed ako, nanonood na lang ako ng TV. Hehehe. To get the mood lighter, I watch american series. Wala lang! Natatawa lang ako kasi many girls have breast augmentation surgery. hahaha. May napanood akong Korean movie, hehehe. She was soo fat that she had herself a surgery mula ulo hanggang paa including that *breast*.. Hehehe. Hindi siya makagalaw ng maayos dahil bawal daw mahawakan ng iba. Shet. I won’t bring pain to myself  like that!

I was looking for new accessories for my laptop when I stumbled upon this site. : )  More discount laptop accessories! Until now I don’t have my laptop bag so I opt to look online. This site also sells memory cards, hardware, adapters and many more! If you are after to buy bulk orders, this is also a great place for you! They sell parts with a price lower than other online stores. So if you want to buy just for yourself, or for a gift to be given to your friends, visit this site!

My desperation made me post that thing, since I haven’t seen my laptop for almost 2 weeks now. I missed it! My friend borrowed it and supposedly he would turn it back just this morning. Eerr, that laptop is nearly dying. It creeps up so I guess I really need to buy a new hard drive and I am looking for cheap ones! I don’t have yet any money on hand and I don’t want to ask my mom. She’s nagging to much.

This time of my life is really sober. No money. Too much heat. Very boring. What else should I endure? I really need some moolahs to live right now. So to say, my summer is deadly.

By the way friends, OUR CONCERT WAS CANCELLED just last SATURDAY.  Sorry for the late announcement. More than that, I feel  sorry for myself and my colleagues. I could not feel anything right now but DESPAIR, DISAPPOINTMENT, and FRUSTRATION. That has been our life for 3 months or more, that we spent our nights rehearsing the piece! The bigger issue is that, I might NOT be able to hold and perform a concert anymore since I will be graduating next sem and will be focusing on my other ACADEMIC plans. I’ll take medicine, btw.

We never expected that our arguments would come to peak and heat up and eventually BURST that led to its total wipe out! NO CONCERT. And someone in authority made that DECISION. We could not do anything but conform to HIM. We cried more than a liter of tears ’cause of the pain. It’s not just a plain performance. It’s much awaited by everyone.

It’s totally devastating.

… I woke up early for having been so excited that finally I’m gonna have my first business suit. Hehehe. I like wearing formal attires and wearing make-up. Can’t wait to pair it with a perfect bag! Nyay! Such a freak. And, I asked my mom to bring me more make-up with the package she will give us. hahaha!

… I cooked munggo for our lunch. It tastes good (of course, I cooked it!)

… I’m having a headache (only minimal) due to my menstruation which I have waited for a couple of days. Finally it came while ago.

… I think of my life for the upcoming semester. I am quite restless and nervous.

— am listening to Up Dharma Down’s ‘Oo’ which my friend introduced me. I like the jazzy style of their music. Better listen to it!

Oo by Up Dharma Down

hindi mo lang alam naiisip kita
baka sakali nga maisip mo ako
hindi mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi
inaasam makita kang muli

nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaahasahang
panahon at ngayon akoy iyong iniwan
luhaan, sugatan, d mapakinabangan
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung d mo lang alam
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung d mo lang alam

ako’y iyong nasakatan
baka sakaling lang maisip mo naman
hindi mo lang alam kay tagal na panahon
ako’y nandrito parin hanggang ngayon para sayo

lumipas man ang araw na ubod ng saya
hindi parin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
kung ako’y nagkasala patawd na sana
ang puso kong hangal ngayon lang nagmahal

wooh, hindi mo lang alm akoy iyong nasaktan
o baka sakaling ngang maisip mo naman
puro siya na lang… sana’y ako naman
hindi mo lang alam ikay minamasdan
sna’y iyong mamalayan
hindi mo lang alam hindi mo alam

kahit tayoy mgkaibigan lang
bumabalik lhat sa tuwing nakukulitan
bka sakali lng maisip mo naman
akoy nandito lng hnd mo lng alm
matalino ka naman

kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
sa laro na ito ay dpat bang sumuko
sana’y d ka na lang pala aking nakilala
kung alam ko lng ako’y iyong mssktan
narito, sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

hindi mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
o baka sakaling ngang maisip mo naman
puro siya na lang.. sana’y ako naman
hindi mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan
sana’y iyong mamalayan
hindi mo lang alam ohhh

malas mo
ikaw ang natipuhan ko
hindi mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan

And because I got extra cash from my mom, I bought new cosmetics. Yey! I am so happy and EXCITED. Now my collection of make-up grows . It just delights me whenever I get new stuff, especially girly stuff. Hopefully I can buy a colour palette next time coz I badly need it. What brand can you suggest? Anyone?

It’s quite a long time since I came back and posted something in here. Now I am typing what my mind says. No need to tell but this one’s might be just a random post. So beware if you probably won’t digest what I’m gonna say here.

So, waz up? Waz up with me? Hmmm. The semester’s gonna end by now. Soon, not until Ondoy came and moved the dates of deadlines since acads has to be suspended. It’s just so terrible. I am not happy with everything. The moving of acads calendar, the suspension of classes, the havoc that Ondoy brought, the hassle for everyone, everything.  They’re spontaneous and no one’s really in mind to think this might happen. One word, TERRIBLE!

I am not directly affected by Ondoy except for my 12-yr old brother who slept at SM Centerpoint after being stranded at the establishment ’cause of flash flood. Other than that, I saw my friend’s house ruined by the flood itself. He lives in Marikina and he was one of those wreaked and left with soiled stuff at home. I could not just imagine what happened. It’s so sudden.

Now Pepeng’s coming. I am horrified with what might happen. Our house’s not sturdy enough to withstand strong winds, I feel so. We were just so lucky we were not swept by Ondoy but with Pepeng, I really don’t know. I could not do any better by now but pray for the safety of my family and for everyone.

As much as I want to help in relief operations, I can’t really leave home and leave my dad alone unless I have very important thing to do or if I feel the weather’s fine for a certain day. My Mom’s not here, as you may not know it and I have younger brothers to look after. I know my dad needs my help. So I can’t really stay very late or my dad will worry. Though I went in Brgy. UP Campus last Monday and did some feeding program for the nearby affected areas.

Nonetheless, these are just some of my qualms in life. Not to mention the academics that surely stresses me now (actually it never really fails to stress me out). Our thesis is going on but due to cancelled classes, our survey procedures are quite not going very well. Our feasibility study also tries to meddle over my free hours and pushes me to work and work and work. But the crazy thing about my student life is that I still include my ‘being performer stuff a.k.a My KG life’. Speaking of which, our applicants just finished their recital last Tuesday Oct. 29, 2008 despite the threat to weather. Another thing though, I became lax with my ‘activist mode’ since I could not really evenly weigh things that much during times like these. I became too busy with KG and acads.

If you want to stalk me or get an update, perhaps, I am very active in facebook. Yes, I am. Hehehe My url is http://www.facebook.com/jezzstarr. I don’t update my twitter, my multiply, or friendster. Just facebook. I don’t have a secretary to do all of them! I just have my two hands and some ample free time to update my virtual profile.

There. Pretty serious post I have here, I guess. I made it as short and as straight as possible and so bear with me.

Connect with me? OK?

Before I forget… This is my latest video which was aired in Umagang Kay Ganda last September 24, 2008. I was one of the musicians here and the cam was focused on me (yuck, yuck). Hehehe.. Hope you enjoy the video.

and my Graduation Picture for the yearbook. :S

Nothing’s hotter than Lady Gaga’s spellbinding Paparazzi song. WOOaaah! This has bait me to listen to it over and over again. Grrr…. I thought I won’t like her but this one persuaded me that I SHOULD like Lady Gaga!

Promise i’ll be kind,
But i won’t stop until that boy is mine
Baby you’ll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Surprisingly, I sing it to no one! Hahaha! How I wish there is someone. LOL

Super saglit na post lang ito. Nahilo ako sa pabalik-balik sa City Hall ng QC para kumuha ng titulo ng lupa para sa aming feasibility study. Hindi siya nakakatuwa dahil muntik na akong masuka sa hilo pagkatapos kong maglakad-lakad kung saan-saan. Haggard.

Sakit sa bangs!!!!!!!!!

At eto, sa wakas, nakaharap at nakausap ko na rin ang mga miyembro ng Kabataan Partylist UP Diliman Chapter. Sobrang saya ko dahil sa wakas nakaharap ko na rin si Bikoy [www.Bikoy.net]. LOL. Idol ko siya, di niya lang alam! Siya ngayon ang kasalukuyang gumagabay sa organisasyon bilang coordinator ng KPL at UPDiliman.

Ang Kabataan Partylist po ay ang natatanging organisasyon/partido sa kongreso na kumakatawan sa mga interest at idelohiya, maging sa mga hinaing ng mga kabataan sa mga kasalukuyang isyung kinakaharap ng ating bansa.

Kabataan shall uphold, defend, and promote the interests of the youth in the attainment of their full potential as Filipino citizens. It shall uphold youth empowerment by contributing in the process of nation-building and social transformation.

Ayan, malinaw na malinaw naman di ba? Hindi ko lang maitranslate pa sa Filipino dahil mejo nosebleed na at effort pa. Haha!

Malaking tagumpay po ito para sa aming mga kabataan ang magkaroon ng kinatawan sa kongreso (si Mong Palatino) sapagkat maliban pa man sa mga bagay na ipinaglalaban ng ibang partylist, nakapokus ito sa pagpapabuti ng kalagayan ng edukasyon, paglalaan ng trabaho para sa mga ‘fresh grads’ , maging sa pagkilala sa mga karapatang pantao ng bawat Pilipino at sa pagbabantay ng ating demokrasya sa pangkabuuan.

At sa tanong kanina sa amin, “bakit ka sumali sa Kabataan Partylist?”

Simple lang naman. Nais ko lang naman maging maalam pa o higit na makaintindi ng mga bagay-bagay. Alam kong yayabong pa ako bilang tao kung lalawakan ko ang aking perspektibo sa buhay. At alam kong may magagawa ako para sa bayan ko at kapwa ko kabataan.

Siya nga pala, sa ating bansa, ang YOUTH  ay napapaloob sa edad na 13-35.

Sundan niyo kami sa facebook o multiply.